I need some girl help?

me and my ex broke up because of the stress having a long distance relationship hour away but still im 15 cant drive and we were or are in love i dont know she sed last night she doesnt want me sad because she loves me i cant get her out of my head and cry every night about her even though we are still friends im madly in love with her and cant be with her it drives me insane and hurts to the point of suicide (i never knew heartaches were real)